= massive awesome

nuff said.

And she's doing somersaults right now!

The twins think its hilarious they have a picture of their baby sisters butt way before she's even born!  None of the other pics were good though.  

She wouldn't cooperate with the tech so she couldn't get all the measurements they needed but everything they saw looks like she's a healthy baby!  We have to go back for another ultrasound in a few weeks to get what they missed, but I don't mind, it's awesome seeing the little cutie!

At the minute her name is Amelia Jane (Milly) but heck, there's months to go yet so we could change our minds lol. 

 The kids went back to school this morning.  I felt a little sad, but more then anything relieved.

Sad because they stayed with their mom last night so I didn't get to get them ready for their first day of first grade.  But I guess fair's fair, I got to get them ready for their first day of kindergarten so I shouldn't feel too bad.  I did miss them this morning though,

So we just got back from a week in Disneyworld.  Everyone had a fantastic time...the boys went on every scary ride they could (seriously these kids have no fear). I managed to avoid anything fast/scary/bumpy by using the "expectant mothers should not ride" clause lol!!   

My husband got to meet my dad finally and they got on as well as I knew they would.  The boys loved him too, and their new uncles (who are barely older then they are)

Have alot of mixed emotions this week. I love my family here but I didn't realise how much I missed my dad until it was time to leave. It's hard knowing he's going to be in the same country for another week and I'm not with him.  This time next week he will be 5000 miles away again.  The next time I see him will most likely be when he comes to visit his grandchild who is due January next year.  That just feels like along way off.

Now we are back real life is about to hit with a bump.  The boys older brothers are about to visit their mother. As well as the fact the boys will probably spend less time here during their visit...they understandably want to spend time with their brothers! But it's always real quiet around here when they aren't about.  Also during the older boys last visit was the last BIG time their mother stirred up shit. So we are understandably apprehensive about that too. Oh well..... it probably won't be as bad as we fear.... probably.

A million things to say and don't know where to start....

This week has been an interesting week so far.  Honestly right now I'm probably too angry to write anything legible.  

I got married last year to a great guy.  I have two stepkids I love.  Unfortunately their mother is queen bitch of the universe.  

I don't know how he can still be polite to her after 5 years of her shit. I'm struggling after just a year.

I don't need this stress today